Moi qui avait oublié tout à propos de ce blog enfouit dans mes vieux (pas très vieux) souvenirs du Cégep. Eh voilà qu'il me reviens en tête à une période de ma vie ou je suis solitaire et loin de mes amis, ma famille, mon chum. Bref, j'ai besoin de me confier, ne serait-ce qu'à une page web oubliée, que probablement personne ne lira jamais.
Pour me resituer moi-même, je suis déménagée à Halifax, Nouvelle-Écosse depuis le 1er Septembre 2012. (Tout juste 1 mois aujourd'hui.) Ah, que le temps passe affreusement lentement les 30 premiers jours.
J'ai quand même eu le temps de détester ma nouvelle vie pendant certains jours, et de l'apprécier pendant d'autres. J'ai pleurer souvent, j'ai rit parfois, j'ai penser souvent.
QUE SUIS-JE VENUE CHERCHER, FAIRE, DONNER, PERDRE à Halifax?
J'en suis venue à la semi-conclusion que je suis ici pour faire des expériences qui seront enrichissantes autant pour mes élèves, je l'expères, que pour moi.
Je suis venue à la recherche de moi-même, en tant que femme qui ne se laisse influencer que par soi, perdue dans un environnement inconnu. Je ne peux compter que sur moi.
Bref, ma nouvelle vie est pleine de frustrations, de révélations sur la vie dont je n'avais aucunement pris conscience.
Il ne suffit que de sortir de sa zone de confort, de perdre l'accès à l'amour si facilement accessible de ses proches, de se retrouver seule dans le monde tel qu'il est de nos jours, pour réaliser.
RÉALISER.
Réaliser quoi?
Que finalement l'aventurière n'est pas si forte qu'elle le croyait, que finalement, la solitude finit par nous déranger après 1 semaine, que vivre en colocation avec des porcs c'est de la merde, que vaincre sa peur d'être en avant d'une classe sans avoir le choix d'y être et sans avoir le choix de parler avec enthousiasme, C'EST DURE.
Réaliser que la vie est dure malgré tout.
Qu'on était chanceux dans notre petite routine douillette, sans le savoir.
Réaliser qu'on était égocentrique de penser que notre vie était plate quand elle peut être aussi triste.
Je profite de ce moment de merde pour m'apprécier moi-même au lieu d'apprécier le reste.
Finalement, je réalise que, sans tout ce que j'avais l'habitude d'avoir au quotidien, la facilité de la vie, je suis maintenant prête à travailler sur moi-même, me prendre en main, planifier mes futures études, prendre du temps pour MOI.
C'est dure, mais peu à peu on rencontre des gens, et on rit un peu plus chaque jour, on apprend à laisser passer les choses qui nous énerves... on ACCEPTE la situation, on s'adapte.
prochain post = me défouler sur mes colocs. j'en ai grand besoin.
Monday, October 1, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Interview with Mathias!
For my last post, I had to interview someone who’s not originally from Quebec about his integration experience in Quebec Quebec
Mathias is francophone. He is from a small city near to Nantes in France Quebec
His first time in La Belle ProvinceRimouski
What struck him first is the greatness of the country. Everything looked huge to him: landscapes, buildings, roads, cars (the consumption of them, as well) and "Mc Donald’s menus".
He also said that the country looks "recent". The streets are straight, perpendicular and well organized, unlike in France
According to him, Quebec France
Regarding food, "if we like fast food, we like
There are some things that are quite different compared to
Regarding language, except for our ‘’damned’’ accent, we use a lot of English words in our conversations in French, making a funny mix. We have lots of pictorial expressions. He thinks that our language is quite straightforward. In
Another thing that struck him is the maintenance in natural parks. They are super well organized and maintained.
There is also a lot of volunteering which is not as developed in his country, unfortunately: "We may be a little too individualistic", he said.
Regarding the houses in small towns, they are not fenced, while in France everyone surrounds his house of fences or hedges. "We must be paranoid", he adds.
To end, Quebec France
To me, this interview makes me want to travel in France
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU!!!
HOW DID I EXPERIENCED THE STRIKE
First, I was torn between two feelings. To want or not to want? I wanted very badly to finish my courses as soon as possible. In the other hand, and just as much determined, I do not want this increase in tuition fees. Considering my choice uncertain, I decided to leave the fate of the vote in the hands of the other students. In short, I did not attend any assembly. Then after a week, I began to be in favor of this leverage the strike is. I was really convinced that students would succeed in making a difference.
But, unfortunately, the only changes it has brought in the minds of most Quebecers are negative. Students insult each other. The government is not interested. The police are attacking protesters. Protesters vandalize infrastructure. The population is becoming impatient and frustrated against the students and the government. Older people keep blaming the students, because they claim to pay for them with taxes. The worst thing is that all students do not stand together. The population does not support the students, but does not hesitate to criticize higher prices. Jean Charest and Line Beauchamp are not doing their job. P.S. They cheat Quebecers.
For a nation that calls itself democratic, these two people very involved in the case of higher tuition fees do not respond to calls for democracy. They deny the students to discourage them. The Minister of Education is really insulting and disrespectful of population rights. Instead of giving talks to the media, she should discuss with us, the students, waiting for months!
In addition to the opposition between the government and students, there is the opposition between the people against the rise and most of Quebec Quebec
I understand the frustration this can cause for people who have no children. But education is a necessary for the entire society and everyone should give in this matter. Anyway, if this is not the price of education which increases, it will be another price. So, one way or another, people will pay more than today. So we should all fight together and stop letting our leaders do! :)
Big brother is watching you...
Sunday, December 4, 2011
FACEBOOK and Johnny Cry
Dear classmates,
Since we've watched The Social Network last week, I wanted to stay in the same subject for my post. As in my first post, I'll introduce you to something, someone. I found a guy on youtube only few hours ago. The guy is weird, no need to tell you that, you'll notice it at first. But if you are paying attention to what he is saying, his point of view is not idiot at all (not saying that the guy doesn't look idiot though). He's actually giving his idea about the end of the world in 2012 related to Facebook. Ok, forgot to tell you: the guy is also on drugs. I invite you to watch some of his videos, and there are a lot. At first, I was feeling sad for ''Johnny'' (his rapper name), then I started to understand the irony and the humour in the videos, even if he is sometimes too high to be funny or to look a bit intelligent. In the majority of his videos, he doesn't make sense at all. But in some of them, you can notice that he actually does not have any mental problems, except he is dependant of alcohol or drugs or whatever he could be on. I was so curious after watching at a couple of videos, I made a little research. It seems like he could be a drug dealer in his city, he also ''rap'', he has a passion for improvising stuff (this explain his incoherence). Well, he has 2 youtube accounts, you might be confused. In one of them, there are more ''sober'' videos. Well, I'll let you explore them. I promise you will laugh, for sure.
Since we've watched The Social Network last week, I wanted to stay in the same subject for my post. As in my first post, I'll introduce you to something, someone. I found a guy on youtube only few hours ago. The guy is weird, no need to tell you that, you'll notice it at first. But if you are paying attention to what he is saying, his point of view is not idiot at all (not saying that the guy doesn't look idiot though). He's actually giving his idea about the end of the world in 2012 related to Facebook. Ok, forgot to tell you: the guy is also on drugs. I invite you to watch some of his videos, and there are a lot. At first, I was feeling sad for ''Johnny'' (his rapper name), then I started to understand the irony and the humour in the videos, even if he is sometimes too high to be funny or to look a bit intelligent. In the majority of his videos, he doesn't make sense at all. But in some of them, you can notice that he actually does not have any mental problems, except he is dependant of alcohol or drugs or whatever he could be on. I was so curious after watching at a couple of videos, I made a little research. It seems like he could be a drug dealer in his city, he also ''rap'', he has a passion for improvising stuff (this explain his incoherence). Well, he has 2 youtube accounts, you might be confused. In one of them, there are more ''sober'' videos. Well, I'll let you explore them. I promise you will laugh, for sure.
PS: I'm sorry this video is only available in French.
Monday, November 21, 2011
WE ARE THE 99%!
First thing I have to say about the Occupy Mouvement: Why did it take people so long to wake up? As long as I know, injustice on earth always have been present. There will always be, no matter how many fights and wars it will cause. How could we explain that the only 1% of corporate forces (governments) runs our world. How can we explain that 1% is getting over 99%? I don't get the point. Anyways, that may means only few people of the 99% feel concerned about the urge to react and to use their own power. Even me, as young adult, no so informed about the world wide issues, don't feel included in that ''story''. So what? I still be included in the 99%. Older people (as my parents, for example) are not even aware of the movement. So... How can it be possible to make a real change on the world situation? Maybe some people don't even care about being led by corruption and injustice, because it always have been this way. We don't have any idea of a world living in peace and love. We always have been figthing for it, but we don't even know what it would be like.
Like I said before, in order to make a success of the Occupy mouvement, and to inform you about it, here are some facts that need to be known about the governments that run the Earth:
''They have taken our houses through an illegal foreclosure process, despite not having the original mortgage.
They have taken bailouts from taxpayers with impunity, and continue to give Executives exorbitant bonuses.
They have perpetuated inequality and discrimination in the workplace based on age, the color of one’s skin, sex, gender identity and sexual orientation.
They have poisoned the food supply through negligence, and undermined the farming system through monopolization.
They have profited off of the torture, confinement, and cruel treatment of countless animals, and actively hide these practices.
They have continuously sought to strip employees of the right to negotiate for better pay and safer working conditions.
They have held students hostage with tens of thousands of dollars of debt on education, which is itself a human right.
They have consistently outsourced labor and used that outsourcing as leverage to cut workers’ healthcare and pay.
They have influenced the courts to achieve the same rights as people, with none of the culpability or responsibility.
They have spent millions of dollars on legal teams that look for ways to get them out of contracts in regards to health insurance.
They have sold our privacy as a commodity.
They have used the military and police force to prevent freedom of the press. They have deliberately declined to recall faulty products endangering lives in pursuit of profit.
They determine economic policy, despite the catastrophic failures their policies have produced and continue to produce.
They have donated large sums of money to politicians, who are responsible for regulating them.
They continue to block alternate forms of energy to keep us dependent on oil.
They continue to block generic forms of medicine that could save people’s lives or provide relief in order to protect investments that have already turned a substantial profit.
They have purposely covered up oil spills, accidents, faulty bookkeeping, and inactive ingredients in pursuit of profit.
They purposefully keep people misinformed and fearful through their control of the media.
They have accepted private contracts to murder prisoners even when presented with serious doubts about their guilt.
They have perpetuated colonialism at home and abroad. They have participated in the torture and murder of innocent civilians overseas.
They continue to create weapons of mass destruction in order to receive government contracts. *
*These grievances are not all-inclusive.''
-As you can read, some of these facts are totally unknown or unrealized by the population. It is our right to be informed and it is our responsability to react about it. So let's be united, let's fight again and again... without any physical violence, of course. But will that make any changes? Out of so many tries to fight injustice, will that one try will be the effective one? Let's hope the impossible: a 99% against 1% victory.
Like I said before, in order to make a success of the Occupy mouvement, and to inform you about it, here are some facts that need to be known about the governments that run the Earth:
''They have taken our houses through an illegal foreclosure process, despite not having the original mortgage.
They have taken bailouts from taxpayers with impunity, and continue to give Executives exorbitant bonuses.
They have perpetuated inequality and discrimination in the workplace based on age, the color of one’s skin, sex, gender identity and sexual orientation.
They have poisoned the food supply through negligence, and undermined the farming system through monopolization.
They have profited off of the torture, confinement, and cruel treatment of countless animals, and actively hide these practices.
They have continuously sought to strip employees of the right to negotiate for better pay and safer working conditions.
They have held students hostage with tens of thousands of dollars of debt on education, which is itself a human right.
They have consistently outsourced labor and used that outsourcing as leverage to cut workers’ healthcare and pay.
They have influenced the courts to achieve the same rights as people, with none of the culpability or responsibility.
They have spent millions of dollars on legal teams that look for ways to get them out of contracts in regards to health insurance.
They have sold our privacy as a commodity.
They have used the military and police force to prevent freedom of the press. They have deliberately declined to recall faulty products endangering lives in pursuit of profit.
They determine economic policy, despite the catastrophic failures their policies have produced and continue to produce.
They have donated large sums of money to politicians, who are responsible for regulating them.
They continue to block alternate forms of energy to keep us dependent on oil.
They continue to block generic forms of medicine that could save people’s lives or provide relief in order to protect investments that have already turned a substantial profit.
They have purposely covered up oil spills, accidents, faulty bookkeeping, and inactive ingredients in pursuit of profit.
They purposefully keep people misinformed and fearful through their control of the media.
They have accepted private contracts to murder prisoners even when presented with serious doubts about their guilt.
They have perpetuated colonialism at home and abroad. They have participated in the torture and murder of innocent civilians overseas.
They continue to create weapons of mass destruction in order to receive government contracts. *
*These grievances are not all-inclusive.''
-As you can read, some of these facts are totally unknown or unrealized by the population. It is our right to be informed and it is our responsability to react about it. So let's be united, let's fight again and again... without any physical violence, of course. But will that make any changes? Out of so many tries to fight injustice, will that one try will be the effective one? Let's hope the impossible: a 99% against 1% victory.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Life is wonderful!
I didn't know what to talk about. I have so much to share with you, but in order to not be so boring and follow the way my blog began with, I'd like to introduce you to JASON MRAZ.
I've always known that everything happens for something. I believe that life has its good and its bad, but what would be the good if the bad wouldn't even exist? Would we appreciate being in the light if we ever had no idea of the darkness? Well, everything has its oposite and this is ain't meant for no reason. So, even if you end up more often in the darkness, you'll always know there is something that will bring you back to light, and that light, actually, DOES exist. Life is wonderful, this is what tells us this song of Jason Mraz, artist that I particularly like. Enjoy lyrics and video, hope it will make sense to you, as it does to me! :)
LYRICS:
It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
Life is wonderful
Life goes full circle
Life is wonderful
Ah la la la la
It takes a night to make it done
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished
I've always known that everything happens for something. I believe that life has its good and its bad, but what would be the good if the bad wouldn't even exist? Would we appreciate being in the light if we ever had no idea of the darkness? Well, everything has its oposite and this is ain't meant for no reason. So, even if you end up more often in the darkness, you'll always know there is something that will bring you back to light, and that light, actually, DOES exist. Life is wonderful, this is what tells us this song of Jason Mraz, artist that I particularly like. Enjoy lyrics and video, hope it will make sense to you, as it does to me! :)
LYRICS:
It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying
It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
Life is wonderful
Life goes full circle
Life is wonderful
Ah la la la la
It takes a night to make it done
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished
Life is wonderful
Life goes full circle
Life is so full of
Life is so rough
Life is wonderful
Life goes full circle
Life is our love
Ah la la la la la
It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain
Life goes full circle
Life is so full of
Life is so rough
Life is wonderful
Life goes full circle
Life is our love
Ah la la la la la
It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain
Monday, October 31, 2011
My Halloween
Halloween is disappointing me this year. Why is this holiday so commercialized? I mean, costumes are so expensive, people are buying tones of candies and parents are driving their children from street to street so they can trick-and-treating as much as possible. People are decorating their house as it was Christmas holiday! I really don't get the point. What are we celebrating yet? I think we are supposed to celebrate death. But instead, people are spending money to buy costumes, decorations and candies. Costumes are not even scaring anymore. Some are costuming to look like Lady Gaga, Superman or Barbie. Halloween is so popular and means not much to us. It has lost its religion meaning. I went to the bar on Saturday night to celebrate. I was expecting to see few people costumed and others not caring about it. OMG! What a surprise to see the bar over fulled of costumed people. I think I had never seen the bar this full. I had never seen that much witches, vampires, superman, fake girls costumes in my entire life as well. The bar was over the capacity it could handle. It took me 10min to get to the dancefloor and 15min to reach the bathroom. WHAT A NIGHT! My wig got stuck everywhere because it was too big for the minimal space everyone had to respect. It even stayed stuck to a man dress shirt and he had to broke its button so I could walk away. My lord, it was boring. Nobody could dance or drink properly. Too much people in this tiny bar. Well, I am also surprise to tell you that I paid $40 for my costume and that I wore it only 2hours because I returned home, wig less, sorry to not be a child anymore so I could have trick-and-treat wearing a witch hat and running through the streets.
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